Baby, today was my first day back to work. After 12 weeks of getting to spend all day with you, I was dreading having to be so far a way for so long. I really started to freak out about it around 6 weeks but Ty pointed out that if I didn't stop worrying about how much time I had left...it would all just pass me by, so I decided to I was going to enjoy every moment with you.
The past 12 weeks have been some of my favorite moments of my life. I was always so happy when I was with my love, Ty. I never knew that I could feel even more for someone until he gave me you. You have completed my family and made me understand why all of those silly girls in my life always wanted babies.
So having to leave all of that for 8 hours today just about broke my heart. The funny thing is, it was easy for you. Your Grandpa
Dorff stayed with you and gave you everything you needed but what I needed was you. I know that things will get better as time goes on, but now all I want is to lay in bed and glaze at you as you smile and coo at me. Nothing makes me happier.
So, little girl, I miss you but I do what is
necessary. It makes it a little easier knowing that people who love you take care of you and the one up side is getting to hold you for the moment I get home and the smile you give me. It ALMOST makes it okay.
I love you baby!
Mama
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